cuti dah hbs!

occay...dah hbs cuti2 msia...

what a wonderful holiday with my lovely family..

tp xbeshnya kakak n hsbnd, umay, ace n munir xda..

xpala..nxt tym k..:)

alahai..11 july register dah d ums..

sem5 d..oh! xsngka..

tp masih jauh lg perjalanan..

yeah.teruskan usaha~

jia you!

holiday!!

whooffttt..lama x update blog!

cuti2 malaysia luk!

yippiee!! kinda lazy to update my blog!

nnt r..k..bz ckit..stil dlm mood holiday..;p

happy?

okay...aku dah stat chat ngan dia..wee!

what a day

haish..gila...
boringgg gilaa mann witout intnet...
intnt lum byr...adeii..maw byr tp maw my sis jg p byr..
aku xtaw cmna...aku tny dia xgtaw pun...lgsg x reply msg aku..
xpala..
beli berukbnd la ne nnt...
huh?

Millatfacebook for Muslim!

wow..

this is great..

Muslim got their own facebook!

so, peeps...register urself at www.millatfacebook.com

don't forget to add me..

Ella Aqasha..thnk you.. :)

pffttttt...what a small world!

pfttt...

dorg bczen?? astga.

pnyala kicik dunia ne..

x sngka pla..

maw add jg dia d fb..

tp..xmawla..malu dowh..

berla..hahaha..

x sngka pla dorg czen~

n ku rasa aku bukan jenis yg dorang suka..

ngah! sowwtt~~

finally!! got it buttt...???

damn.damn.damn.

apparently, we r friends in Facebook!! what a shame!

i cant recall, i don't think i added him in fb~~

nooo~~ why I'm so stupid can't identify him~

duiii...

occayy..the point is~~ i'm just soo 'ashamed' u knw..idk~

nt ashamed bha..but what ah..haishh...

u knw what the feeling when u 'like' or 'adore' him but actually, u r not belong to him but suddenly, u found that he is ur friend in fb! ngaa~~ but u dun knw..actlly, he is! haiyoo...

it's too hard to explain hw exactly my feeling right nw..

n u knw what...I knw his name after 1 semester passed..hahaha..

ngaaa~~n perhaps I'm quite 'disappointed' when I found that he's already got a girlfriend!

dush! dush!

nvrmind...myb he's not 4 me~~ ngeh..

why I'm so jiwang ow this.? haiyaaa...amoiii..

Juara AF8 milik SHAHIR

Setelah lebih 3 bulan Akademi Fantasia berlangsung, akhirnya kemenangan berpihak kepada Ahmad Shahir Zawawi.

Memang tidak boleh dipertikaikan lagi kemenangannya, tetapi bagi saya kalau Adira yang menang, mungkin lagi ramai yang bersorak gembira terutamanya penduduk negeri Sabah.

Shahir memang salah seorang pelajar yang kebolehannya dalam menyanyi tidak boleh dinafikan apatah lagi banyak keistimewaan yang ada pada dirinya jika dilihat secara luaran.

Beliau memang ciri-ciri lelaki idaman ibu-ibu, makcik-makcik di luar sana. Apa tidaknya, dengan kebolehannya dalam bertaranum, ditambah lagi dengan wajah kacak beliau yang tak ubah seperti pelakon Hindustan, Saif Ali Khan, memang ramai perempuan di luar sana tergila-gilakannya.

sama tak?

Saya? Of course saya minat lelaki seperti Shahir, kuat agama, hensem, baik, sopan-santun dan yang bestnya nama nya hampir sama dengan nama saya Syahirah. :)

Jika anda semua perasan, cara Shahir menunjuk sesuatu pun, dengan menggunakan ibu telunjuk beliau..yang mana ia menggambarkan kesopanan beliau. Mungkin tidak semua yang setuju dengan pendapat saya, tapi ini cuma bagi pandangan saya.

Tahniah Shahir dan semua pemenang Adira, Daus, Maulana dan Iwan.

Semuanya terbaik okay.:)

so sorryyyyy

22/05/2010 (Saturday) - 11.15am

Bru blk dr ums td..lps 1 paper...ada 5 paper lg tggl~smuanya ada 7subjek tp 1 subjek xda final xm~

bolehla tahan~ xjg susah sgt, x jg sng..kira oklaa..

smpai rumah ja...ada ja yg bkin pns~ aku dah ckp..bju aku yg d hanger jgn di lipat~ biarkan dgn hanger dia..ne tlmapau rajin c dyra ne..d lipat la smua...

ntala...actually, ne perkara kcil ja..tp nta..trus begaduh~

begaduh ma c ace~~~

napala aku ne bongok tul~ kuat melwan, kuat mrh~

ya Allah..tolong aku yaAllah..

aku cdey tul tgk c ace menangis td~~ dia ckp "knapa juga ko bnci aku ne?"

aku x benci kamu smua...aku pun x taw...knapa aku gni...

kalo kamu benci aku, bencila..aku fhm jua..

antara smua, aku la yg tdk berguna, akula sgala2nya yg buruk~

aku xtaw smpai bila kau gni~

byk kali dah aku try..ma hepi2 ngan fmly, adik bradik smua...

npa bha aku ne gni~~ bongok tul~

mslh otak kali~~ gila sda mgkn mcm dorg slalu ckp~~

ya Allah..hrp2 aku dpt kawal perasaan mrh aku ne..

aku xmaw gni~ aku maw smua hepi2...kami adik bradik rapat...

xda gaduh2...tp..psl aku..ntalaaa....aku xtaw!

mgkn tnda2 aku mati? aku takutt ya Allah..

aku byk tul dosa aku....

tlg aku ya Allah betulkan kesilapan aku~

aku x benci kamu~~ aku syg smua~~ bapa, mama, kakak, idang, munir, ace, pendi, umay, dyra, yus n bunjut~~ czen2 kyna, rudin, dodon~~n smua..

sorry sgt2 perangai aku cm gni~~

kamu bencila aku...aku layak utk dibenci...

maafkan aku atas semuanya..

ya Allah!

hurm,

i don't know until when i should be like this.

u knw what..i'm afraid..too scared to think bout my future.

yeah~ it's my dirty little secret..

almost 10years i keep my secret~

only my families knw what is it~ n Allah swt for sure..

ya Allah..please help me!

exam 21-28mei/2010

As usual, part tym student mmg lmbt ckit xm dr stdnt full tym ums..

xbest jg la..yala...smua org dah cuti..ktorg msh nk xm~

xpe~~ yg pntg study~

em, first paper...english~ bolehla kot jwb nnt...insyaAllah..

then paper teori komunikasi dan sterusnyaaa...hehee

em, lum byr yuran la pla...ptt dah byr..hehe

esok bru byr~~ yg pntg b4 xm~

byr separuh je la...xda duit la pla..kih3...

nk ceta apa ya..mggu2 cmne mmg bz, strez watsoever!

haishh..mcm nk gla jg la~ tp x gila2 jg...ngeh

haishh...rindu ngan bapa, mama, adik2, kakak, abg...

nnt pas xm insyaAllah...sy balik semporna ya.!

tungguuu~~~ hehhee

rindu~

alahai~

lamanya x update blog~

kinda bz wit stdy n work~

memori

07/05/2010

Ari ne aku last keja d 7e stor 0927 1b...sgt2 cdey meninggalkan rakan2ku~~

rndu sgt2 terutamnya anes, bos mimi, pck, ezan, glen, famy, dave, yaser, tony, jess, ira, kishen, kit n kat.....

nta...mmg cdey...tp nk buat cmna kn...xdpt cuti..pa lg resign trus la..huhu..

sbr ja la..

mcd? ntalaa...mgkn aku stil part tym jua sna...xtaw lg..

no mood...xbleh nk fkir skrg...byk sgt fkir...

sshnyaaaa~~~

famy..imyalot..cdey tul aku tym slm ngan dave pg smlm~~ mengejut tul jg aku rsgn~~ aiyyy..malsnyaa....

ndapala...rzeki ada d mna2...n ada hkmah d sebaliknya...

gonna mish u guys...thnx semua 4 everything~~ :)

formspring.me

ask me anything that cross ur mind.

www.formspring.me/EllaAqasha

ko ada bf ka?

knapa juaaa?? if i say nooooooo...soo??

2 hours ago Delete Your Response

Do you believe in life after death?

d alam syurga.:)

14 hours ago

Are you afraid of dying?

ngaaa~~mstila..

14 hours ago

What's the most delicious meal you've ever had?

smua yg mum sy msk:)

yesterday

What's your favorite sport?

sooooooooooo many.;p

yesterday

What TV show makes you laugh the loudest?

yg funny2 la.

yesterday

Would you rather vacation at the beach or in the mountains?

beach.:)

yesterday

Where's your favorite place to buy clothes?

padini,esprit, bodyglove n d&m...wherever yg clothes dia cntk2 laa..huhuu

yesterday

Where'd you find out about formspring.me?

friends in fb.

yesterday

If you could instantly become fluent in another language, which language would you pick?

perancis.

yesterday

Do you believe in God?

for sure.

yesterday

Have you ever been fired? If so, why?

nope.

yesterday

Who's the coolest person you know?

my family.:)

yesterday

What did you dream about last night?

eee...ngeri tul ow..aduiiii..kin tkut ne..

yesterday

Would you rather swim in a pool or the ocean?

in a pool la bha..adeii

yesterday

who's whitechocolate?

sum1 laa..hahahaha

yesterday

sepala knun??

y u maw taw??
i miss whitechocolate.;p

yesterday

Do you miss anyone in your life?

mayyyyybeeee..y??

yesterday

What's the best place near you to get some ice cream?

dkt 1b.hahahaa

yesterday

When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

police.;p

yesterday

What celebrity would play you in a movie about your life?

blake.

yesterday

What's your favorite genre of music?

i listen to all types of music.. juz bring it on..:)

yesterday

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

no need to change it.i love my name.:)

yesterday

Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate :)

yesterday

If you could have been the author of any book, what would it have been?

love story?? hahhahaaa

yesterday

Who's the most overrated athlete?

ngaaa~~~

yesterday

If you had to give up one favorite food, what would the most difficult?

chocolate.

yesterday

What's the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?

i've no idea.sy mkn smua yg suka.hahhaa

yesterday

Do you consider yourself a good dancer?

hahhahaaa.....dun think so..

yesterday

Who was your first crush?

a5?hahhahaa

yesterday

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

jesse mccartney or kamal adli? hahahaaa

yesterday

What do you think is your most attractive feature?

eyes, smile?? hahaha..prsn! ;p

yesterday

What YouTube video made you laugh recently?

what ah....soo many la dear.

yesterday

Would you rather get up early or sleep late?

sleep late!

yesterday

what is ur full name?

syahirah

yesterday

cantik ouh kaw...;p

hahaha..tq :)

yesterday

ko studi mana sudah skrg?

d ums.:)

yesterday

sepa bha afif ko slalu ckp 2??

hahahhaaa..ko rasa??

yesterday

ko ada boypren ka??

knapa jua??

yesterday

What's the kindest thing someone has ever done for you?

what ah??

Your current relationship status?

has a crush?? ;p

yesterday Delete Your Response

Do you believe in ghosts?

no comment.;p

yesterday

Who's the smartest person you know?

dr.sheikh muzaffar...

yesterday

If you won a $1,000 shopping spree for any store, which store would you pick?

roxy

yesterday

Who was the best teacher you've ever had?

semua pun beshh!!

dance with my father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then


Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved


If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again


Ooh, ooh


When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said


Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me


If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father
again


Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear her, mama cryin' for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me


I know I'm prayin' for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don't do it usually
But Lord, she's dyin' to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

p/s : dedicate to my abah...:)

oh! i miss bapa, mama n my famly~

pagi ini, again..aku gaduh ngan adik aku...umai..

ntah knapa kami x be ngam btul..ada ja yg bikin kami gaduh..

sda dia taw aku x ska brg2 aku kna pkai..d situ jg dia pkai..

kalo mnta izin ndapa...ne aku tny..'mna ada'..dgn nada mrh2 g...

skali tgk..mmg ada dia ambik brg aku..

pastu apa lg..mulalah acara bergaduh n teriak2...

aku xska dia kuat2 suara dkt aku..tp mslhnya dia teriak ejek2 aku..'botak'..kuat2...

cmna aku x sakit hati...dia teriak2...terjerit2...smpai dgr ole smua org...

adoiii..malunya...aku trus rndu ma bpa aku, mama aku, kakak, idang, dyra, pendi, yus n eijut...

btul2 rndu ngan kamu smua...:'(

sorry byk2 byk sshkan kamu, berkasar dgn kamu smua,,

aku pun slalu berharap aku x mrh2 lg cmne...ckp ksr, melawan org yg lbh tua...

aku hrp2 sgt aku jadi anak yg baik kpd mama n bpa, adik yg bagus dgn kakak2 dan abg2nya,..dan kakak yg penyanyang kpd adik2nya...tp nta knapa cmne...

aku mmg xmaw cmne..percayalahh...semua orang maw berubah..

apa lg aku..terlalu byk kekurangan dalam diri aku...

dr segi fizikal dan mental....aku taw...aku sdr aku sepa...

mmg sakit bila kna ejek2 camtu...'botak', gemuk, pendek, jellek..smuala...

aku sdr jg 2...aku taw kekurangan aku smua..

aku maw jd cm yg lain..biar x sempurna...tp aku mmg btul2 x smpurna..

apa yg ada dgn smua org (perempuan) tiada dgn aku,...

mgkn org nmpk aku slalu hepi2..d keja..klas..atau mna2..

tp smntara ja 2..bila lama2 bru kamu taw aku cmna..

nta knapa..terlalu byk aku fkir...

aku pun xtaw..tolong aku ya Allah...pak, mak, kak, idang...

aku ndataw....aku ndataw...aku taw penderitaan aku ne sbnrnya xla sbsr mna...aku taw da lg org yg byk mslh..lbh menderita...dr aku...tp aku taw dorg tabah..

aku pun maw jd camtu.

aku pnt sda nangis...aku tiap msa igt bapa aku, mama aku, kakak2 aku...abg2 aku dan adik2ku...pendi, dyra, yus, jut n umay..

kalo blh aku maw smua org gembira.....saling syg menyayang ant 1 sama lain...

berdoa ja la...Allah akan bntu jg...aku yakin tu...

ya Allah...maafkan hambamu ini ya Allah...aku khilaf...aku byk buat kesilapan d dunia yg fana ini ya Allah....

pak, mak...terima kasih atas segalanya..terlalu byk pengorbanan kamu terhdap anakmu ini....

terlalu byk...aku xtaw cmna maw balas...aku maw kita semua gembira smua...terima kasih mak, pak!

kak...ko la org rapat ngan aku...ko byk taw apa mslhku...tiap aku ada mslh aku msti ckp ma ko..msg ko...ko byk tlg aku...terima kasih kak....aku hrp aku dpt bls jasa2 kau ma aku...

aku rndu kamu smua...

idang....ko pun sma...aku slalu ceta ma ko apa mslh2 aku, mslh2 d rmh atau apa ja ma ko...berpun kita slalu gaduh...slalu jg ko tlg aku...sma cm kakak, bpa n mama...aku byk kali lwn ckp kamu....terima kasih ah idang...

munir...aku taw ko sbnrnya bgs..baik hati...tp aku taw ko cma rndh diri...jgn telampau rndh diri...aku taw ko blh berjaya jg,,,..1 ja..aku hrp ko baik2 sma bpa n mama....aku hrp sgt kita semua adik beradik dpt berbaik2 smua cm orang lain...ksian mama n bpa....aku xblh tahan kalo dorg nangis...

ace...sorry aku slalu lwn ko...ckp ksr ma ko...kasi rendah2 ko...tp sbnrnya aku bermaksud cmtu...aku ksian ma kamu...aku maw kamu gembira..aku maw tlg kamu smua kalo aku blh...

terima kasih ah jg byk tlg aku...

pendi....yg aku rapat jg...xbyk ckp...tp aku suka dgn sikap dia..sbb kami jrg gaduh...bgs sama aku..jrg ejek2 aku....pendi..pendi...:')

umay...jgn ko slalu mlwn...kalo dgn aku, x kesah jg...tp dgn yg lain..jgnla k..

dyra..yg rapat ngan aku jg...bgs sama aku...adik2ku smua bgs ma aku..terima kasih smua...

dyra..rndu sama ko...

yus n jut...kamu adik2 aku yg plgggg comel....maw ja ku p sna jmpa kamu...aku rndu kamu jud, yus..nakal2 kamu smua...ketawa2 kamu...kcu2 aku...hehee...comel...

terima kasih smua...terima kasih yg x terhingga...

semoga kita jadi anak2 yg soleh dan solehah, jadi keluarga yg aman, damai, sayang menyayang antra satu sama lain....

jauhkan hasad dengki, sifat amarah, panas baran dlm diri kami ya Allah...

im SORRY!

hari ini gaduh lagi ngan adik aku.

aku cpt tul marah..aku xtawla.

n kali ne bila abg aku smpai..dia tegur kami..dia nasihat kami.

tp aku cm biasa keras kpala..xmaw ditegur.

pastu bila dia ckp2 smua..aku tersdr sumthin..

bapa aku...

bapa aku cm boleh taw kalo kami ada problm..dia akan call..

tp aku xmaw jwb call bapa aku...cz tym 2 aku nangis..

aku xtaw maw ckp cmna nnt..

soory sgt2 pak..aku cuma x blh..ada 6 miscall la camtue...

aku btul2 rasa bersalah...

aku igt bapa aku taw kami gaduh..

then, aku msg bapa aku...gtaw kami smua okay d cni..itu ja..'

mcm kurang ajar..bapa aku call maw tny kabar..tp aku xjwb..

bkn pa..aku xblh ckp td..n aku igt bapa aku maw tegur psl kami gaduh..

rpnya aku silap..bapaku call maw tny2 kabar...

aku rnduuuuuuuuu sgt2 ngan bapa aku, mama aku, kakak aku, idg...adik2 aku

aku ingin sgt jadi anak yg terbaik n dpt berbaik2 ngan adik bradik yg lain..

sorri semua..aku taw smua salah aku..

aku cpt mrh..panas baran...

aku cuma maw kamu taw,,

biarpun aku gni..

aku syg smua..lgsg teda niat aku mrh2..

nta knapa aku gni..

ace..nta bila kamu taw apa ku ckp ne..

aku maw kamu taw..aku lgsg x kisah kmu pkai brg2 aku..mnta duit ma aku..

ckp ja...kalo boleh aku maw tolong kamu smua..

aku maw kc hepi kluarga aku ja..

aku akan tlg slagi aku boleh..

tp aku x suka sbb ada org x dikenal d rmh ne...

bkn apa..kmu taw kan keadaan aku cmna..

mgkn sbb 2 aku slalu mrh..ntala..

wallahualam..

aku syg kamu smua..lps aku smbyg aku sntiasa berdoa kita smua jadi keluarga aman damai, bahagia...aminn

pak, mak, kak, idang, munir, ace, pendi, umay, dyra, yus n jut..

syg kamu smua..

tq utk segalanya..